My greatest regret is not joining the church in my youth and not being able to raise my children in the church environment from day one and not having the blessings of the church and the wisdom of the church and education of the church help guide me through my twenties thirties and now my 40s.
I regret the time I wasted in evangelical movements, clapping my hands and wearing baseball caps in church but learning nothing absorbing nothing growing in no way shape or form.
I was there for The vibes and the spiritual sugar Rush and I really tried. I dedicated myself. I read the Bible I engaged and every time I ask questions they were a little bit deeper or that would poke through the shallow Waters that is the evangelical movement they were just unable to answer them.
They'd be like just read the Bible. It simply didn't work, I needed more.
I met Missionaries when I was in my early twenties way back then, and I thought I knew it all and didn't need them and was quite mean to them.
In hindsight, I wish I had stopped and listened. My life would have changed completely.
To anyone who reads this and thinks, even a bit, thinking about Jesus Christ and thinking about joining the church and thinking about meeting missionaries, I strongly deeply encourage you to do so.
It is truly my greatest regret and I did join earlier/ younger.
I would have had more time to do so much more. Learn so much more and to be honest made fewer mistakes.
Now I feel like I have to spend the rest of my life playing catch up.
God is merciful and forgiving but I will not forgive myself for letting such a brilliant opportunity pass. But I thank God for the opportunity to repent and to change and to learn and to grow. Thank you heavenly father.
I say this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen
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